5. This suppose to be landed at the end of July 2004

Crosslink at July 2004





patience and compassionate lead me to nothing,
memory betrayed me and my heart,
great burden sliping into my soul inside, pressing very hard,
everything now is way too diferent from what's in my mind before,

who is the lover, honestly?
is she different from one that occupied my mind for many years?

here i am and i thought time had set me free,
but those thought of you keep taunting me.
consuming everything inside and leave nothing... mercy me please.
oh.. i have tried so hard to make the best of it for everyone.

will this be end?
else, i have confined myself until the end of me

now, i have to turn to way which will drive me to the place where i don't belong there
yet, in this 'paripurna', miracle have sacrified me for someone else,
little hope that i've bought with many years of my life is burnt to asses,
the path she took is not coincide with mine.
oh.. by it, every part of me has done everything to ease this pain,but they're still there

what should i do if some bad thing happen with her?
while here, its seems only pray for her, for what i had and for what i have.